Aftermath 2 : Aku dan Antagonis X

 こんにちは。マリサです。

Its September now isnt it... And this week is a school holiday. Im going to end form 3 in less than 4 weeks now. I can hear the fullmetal alchemist ops and eds and my 2025 playlist is coming up...

Haha , i really dunno how to start this , but i think this is a new chapter in my story of 2025.

Last week , i really lost my so called motivation because of what i did of all these years with Antagonist X. Man, whoever reads this will never know what i rant on my small, green notebook ... Okay, I literally downgrade myself calling me a pathetic nerd , and all that negative thoughts.

After hearing a lecture from my mother , i literally changed myself to a brand new person.

I lack of self confidence.

Well , i really dont know how to put this in words because its reaaaaaally a long story as i also wrote this in my journal.

After all these years , that day I finally realized that what is making me pathetic in front of him all along is my self confidence. 

I keep avoiding and blocking him , thus i keep becoming a coward whenever i seem him. Yang kita kena takut ialah Allah SWT , bukannya manusia. Itulah kesilapanku... He's just like Envy from FMAB. !!!!!

Kinda had to say it, HE IS LIKE THE VILLAIN SIDE OF FMAB WITH LUST AND HOMUNCULUS OMGGGG HAHAH (im only in episode ~16)

But after that day , i became brave. This is where an absolute cinema begins.

On recess time , i literally want to sit under the tree as I always before he has invaded that area with his henchmen and minions. Ugh , it sucks right? Being invaded by that British guy. 

But i pushed myself to stand out. I have to, i said myself. After putting first my pinkishwatter bottle in that special spot bench , i rushed to canteen to get my food. 

When i came back , oh my gosh. There was a lot OF men!!! Ahhh!!! Girl panic!!! (⁠ ⁠≧⁠Д⁠≦⁠)

Relak lu... Buat" tengok makanan dekat kiosk...

Heheh , then i make my move. My heart was throbbing as one of my classmate is sitting at that bench.

As i slowly approach the area with that filthy franks, i politely asked my dear classmate Chern , "Uh, can u plz move out? That is my water bottle there°^°"

And so , he , as a gentlement, move out. ‼️‼️‼️うれしいーーーーー!!!!!

I calmly sit in that special spot , along with the boys side by side.... I was the only girl in that area.. hahah , finally becoming that girl I wanted to be! Now this is what the true definition of princess!

:D

Knowing Antagonist X is on my right side , and with my spagetthi on my right hand, i quickly open up my journal to record this day. As a starter , i was quite nervous to sit in an area surrounded by boys... So to forget all that , i didnt eat my spagethhi and i had to write in my journal as a substitute ( I HAD TO!!)

Yah, that is just all what happened to me for last week.. just wanted to share my story here lulz. I dunno if you get it or nah , but i think you'll get it hopefully. 

Here is my drawing of what i imagined myself as a princess :

うれしいにゃんー☆☆