Hai gais , kite kembali lagi ke babak ketiga dalam cerita "Perihal Aku dan Antagonis X"
Haha, jadi macam novel melayu2 yg tak laku/takpopular kan? Ataupun cerita wattpad drpd 2016 kannn? ATAUU teledrama kul 7 dekat TV3 kann? Kan gais? Lol.
Tetapi , ini tidak ges... Cerita sebenar. Sekali lagiku ingatkam , aku tidak niat untuk mengaibkan sesiapa yang aku mention dalam blog ni , sebaliknya just nak bagi pengajaran based on my past actions dan hanya sekadar refleksi diri sementara aku tak sihat dekat rumah ni lawlz.
Ok , yg ni last.
So as i said , this will be the last of 2022 , the end of my fun era before going to the terrifying SEKOLAH MENENGAH!!! (Eeeeek dah type smk pun dah seram gaiz π )
It was September 2022.
I remember this part i wrote on my journal, i think i could read that for future purposes. So i think i should sped up things a bit.
So basically X and me joined in an international competition , which involves arduino and all..
And we had to develop our game project everytime the clock hits somewhere at 11.30 , and we have to go down at the school's office with our other 2 members that will be competing too.
Now , in that exact project period timeline , i have recognised X's true behaviour... This is where things get worse.
Now , i thought that we could cooperate together to make an awesome , cool game that everything would work the best as we are both have the same taste and all.
But reality is often cruel.
X always drags the time by searching unrelated stuff.
P/s : Makluklah , kamiorang just 12 tahun masa tu, dan tambah pulak , aku ni pompuan , i dunno how to raise my voice towards 3 opposite sex in the school's office. I really wanted to , but my maruah will go downwards.
I didnt planned carefully how'd our game goes , so things went cuckoo and skibidi bap mm dodoodoo
Plus , that time he was into his stranger things phase , so he influenced me to watch it in netflix.
X always brags our game should be like stranger things, bedwars , blablabla dan banyak lagi
In the end , Allah juga yang settle semua.
Hampir2 sebelum X dengan aku kena showcase kamipunya game sekat PISF , aku memang sebak dengan breakdown dah. Sebab masa tu, memang last2 minute sekali and our game is like 50% done.
I was so in a mental state and i cried a lot the night before the event happens.
But with the support from my family, i continued to finish that game , with all my might , while listening to Keep you rhands off eizouken! Op.
And finally , it was the event day. I wore my baju sekolah , and as usual, X wore his baju pengawas.
My sincere reaction was :
Malas aaa nak cari gambaq yg tepat sekali dengan perasaan π
yes i was really blushing and my heart was γγγγ
That was ONE of the main reasons why i struggle and lost confidence when i first entered the area.
PLUS , it was just ME and X TOGETHER IN ONE TABLE!!!!
GYAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
But luckily , alhamdulillah we succeed on presenting in front of those big black guys haha.
P/s on this event day , i did wrote a blog on my art blog about my art improvement . Not sure whether its in this blogspot or my other blogs.. nevermind.
Now , you might be wondering what type of ending this was.
Im sorry , but Your guess was absolutely wrong.
It was a suprise + good ending.
Haha. Pelik kan? Ni semua drpd Allah :).
Fast foward , we won in 2nd place , although as a 15 year old seeing back that scratch project was an ultimate mess.
Im literally speechless that time , when my name and X's name was called and we had to get on stage together.. in front of... 100 people... and those people at the back... and out of the arena too...
Not sure if i had that picture of me and X on stage , havent seen it in a while though... But for my own good i better not see it.
And later , after the ceremony has ended , her little sister gave me a potrait of mine , i met his parents , unexpectedly.
Woah , his mom was so baik hati and his father was another level.. as if his dad was like an anime character, wearing spectacles.
I dont know how to describe that day , but it was somehow odd, after years has passed.
huh...
It kinda hurts though. (´；Ο；｀)
pffff okay , quit wondering around the past now , it has time to end the perihal.
Okay , after quite some time , 2022 has gone to an end.
Everyone was busy looking foward for their future boarding school.
As usual , i was the one who got away from everybody.
I made a big mistake that time.
I focused on the present , and not looking on the future..
Time changes , and so does everyone.
That was the downfall of me and X.
The transition of 2022 to 2023 was quite painful.
X was changing his way of speech too. This is when i noticed our chats is getting further , more different than usual.
Since X was my only friend that time , i always check whether there was messages on my telegram.
Alas, there was none... The end of darjah 6 was quite a somber to me lol. Everyone was celebrating and having fun with their friends online , playing games and hanging out , but to me was lonelier. You could read that in later blogs.
Now , it was the starting point of Form 1.
It was Somewhere in February 2023. School has already started , and ofc X has new friends! Yay~
For me , as an unorganized and clutterd messy kid, i had to go to my new school as i mention in my 'Hello 2024' blog , late compared to regular kids.
Man , form 1 hits hard than i expected. As i am in form 3 now , looking back 2 years ago was such a roller coaster ride. I'll explain this in a different blog.
Fast fast foward , i quit and joined X's school.
At last , i got to see X's face. I was so happy after being seperated for quite some time.
But checkpoint. It wasnt that long.
In this society , as well as you , might be thinking that our relationship has gone closer in this "sekolah menengah" stage. You might be expecting X and me would often go out and study together , right? Haha.
But hell no. ew , haram brother. (inserts that arab meme)
For form 1 , X and me was quite a distance since he has new friends in his class.. (i was in a different class since i took Japanese)
As usual , i kinda forgot what happened in form 1 , as things got a little bit messed up in my life at the age of 13.
Now , it was form 2. This is where our relationship ended , finally , you might say.
I somehow got a mental crisis stuck to me last year. Things got worse as school has already just started... I got way off different than my usual self.
2024 was my worst year , among the others...
I remember giving presents and stuff to X and his reaction was neutral , as he has his minions on his back XD
So , you might be wondering , after all the happy moments that I've experienced , where the heck does the word 'antagonist' come , as seen from the title?
Lolz , here it is:
The final moments between X and me interacting together was in telegram , X sent me uhhh stuff that got me mad. So i made the decision to end our relationship for good, and for myself too. :P
So , later on I labeled him as 'Antagonist X' as he was the antagonist of my life , haha just kidding , until form 5 je lah
Lepas habis sekolah, dah dapat SPM semua tak jumpa dah~
Dah la , blog panjang gilaa dah ni, aq sambung outro/aftermath dalam blog yang akan datang.
Setakat ni sahaja perihal tentang aku dan dia.
Wallahua'lam.
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