Its 12 am now.. i should be sleeping.
But not yet , i have to record this day as i havent done a single study. Since i am experiencing health issues , i do not have the power and motivation to do my regular tasks and routines as well. I am sincerely apologizing for myself as I didnt go to school for the last 4 days.
As finals is in just a month , i am getting that semester ending now; yes the horror; the anxiety: that is what i am feeling as September comes.. desire drive will often play in my head as it is time for form 3 to come an end nearly.
Basically today , i did nothing as I did at home. The mucus in my nose is filling up the sensory cells for the past 5 days... I am experiencing the sickness phase as that sense of smell is blocked , rather than smelling the fresh, clean air with unblocked nose. This brings a big impact to my emotions as well, because i often flashback memories everytime i get this phase , so you might notice my recent blogs are related to the past.
I just wanted to tell everyting that I've encountered on the internet lately for today. Just not to waste all my energy for what i did.
One of the most used apps for me was Youtube , and Pinterest.
Note that i am that type of person who is alone; i am really active online .
Firstly, i'd like to summarize that watching youtube for a long time is really wild; delusional even...
I am so bersyukur to my beloved country where its so peaceful here. I mean , there could be crimes and all, but not as bad as our neighbouring countries like Myanmar, Indonesia and Philipines and any other countries that are in ASEAN list.
Just watched a vid about my age already has 赤ちゃん. I literally shooked while watching how their hometown looks like-- a monstrous , corrupted city... It really does look nightmarish to me.
I also looked up about rohingyas ; the runaway people form their homecountry Myanmar. In short , muslims were kicked and a lot of human trafficiking were going in that country; but this is just Myanmar... Theres other chaotic countries like Thailand -- where they accept gay marriages... EW!!!!
Not to mention that Indonesia also has the violence and conflict going around...
i really berzikir a lot tadi ; showing a sign of appreciation and my gratefulness that I live in a country where none of that happened , alhamdulillah.
Also , in conjuction with this month's MERDEKA!!! CELEBRATION , i finally found the meaning of merdeka throughout my scrolling of those domestic and wild countries... I really wanted to cry honestly... I finally get that pengajaran and nilai murni as they always say in thosr textbooks... I think i am beggining to develop a new self of mine :')
But really, in reality i really felt sad watching our cousins and siblings out there , crying for help as there are those idiotic people who dont have humanity values and sympathaty...
Now , i will cherish the real definition of Malaysia's hospitality <3 i felt comfort in my own country , even though i didnt go luar negara yet haha.
Tanggal 31~
Merdeka~!! :D
Okay, so next , i wanted to talk about internet and its famous child; pornographism.
Yes , if you read my previous blogs , there's one called "Internet and Otak Kuning" in malay, but in this blog , i'll just write it in short.
Bosan tengok youtube , aku tengok pinterest pulak untuk tengok content lawak.
When my intention was to just open my save , clean board away from those nasty and dirty pins in pinterest's algorithm , i got carried away with the pins below the video that i was cureently watching.. and down the rabbit hole it goes: i watched and watched every single vidoes that mr p. had recommended me.
And i'll tell you what; everytime i see a single , post of a video in pinterest , i really felt that sense of suspicious-ness is containing in that video.
I quickly istighfar when i see a kemungkaran/kemaksiatan happening in those vids.. aduh, now this is what i call brainrotting (
I just wanted to warn my readers to not recommended to watch the vids on pinterest as they have some nudity and explicit content -- if you do wanted it sm you'll have to becareful by just looking and guessing at the thumbnails; or you'll fall in one of those traps...
Okay , so finally before i go to sleep , my last discussion of tonight is of :
"Artists on the Internet and their so called NSFW habitat."
Heh, seems like another title for a blog entry right? Nah!!! XD
But it seems cool for a title tho... WAHHHH!! 😭😭
Anyways, to explain what i've encountered in really , really short summary ;
Looking back at the channels i used to watch back in the early sweet days of 3rd grade i really like this one channel called 'Geo exe'
About an hour ago i came back again at his(?) channel and i wanted to deep dive more into his identity since his artstyle was really good and pleasantly in the eyes of a teenager.
And so , i clicked one of his social links and what a suprise; its full of girls with big b's.
Bukan nak mengaibkan dia tapi memang dia post sah2 dekat public tho 😮💨
Looking back at his youtube channel again i already noticed before this that his artstyle has some R18 elements... ( Nak kata DAH AGAK DAH!!!!)
After moments searching for this account's identity , i thought the user was a girl at first , guessing by the pfp of the channel , but i really think the user is a he, based on the majority of how he draws his oc and all; and the girls too.
Man , diving into every artist's twitter account is just really massive compared of what they showcased on any other platforms.. why does it have to be twitter that shows the worse sight of them ughhhh
To my suprise again he wasnt a japanese either; he was in Chile... :/ hhhh i thought he was japanese!!!!
Nah , whatever that doesnt matter lolz.
What im trying to say here is that most artist of the 21st century is widely exposed to NSFW related stuff; mostly in pornography... Im really scared that without being thought the sexual education and islamic (or any religious beliefs) properly , the upcoming generation that will take over our society will increasingly lead to a dark history; titim hitam dan hati gelap. They will also sponsor the appearance of Dajjal I'll say. Haha, amik ko.
Akhir zaman , nak kata ape? check mic plzz HAHA
Tapi serious do , dajjal bukan perkara main2. Dia tu yg mengakui tuhan punnn orang bodoh je yg bole ikut. Orang beriman shj yg boleh survive zaman tu.
So this is what im tring to say; be a person who has strong iman , and never follow the society , ever. Follow the sunnah and quran.
I WILL explain longer about pornography and the impact towards our society in this modern day generation. Nyum, this is going to be sooooooo crunchy to write and its so delicious for a philosophy and theory topic!! Yayzies!!! :3
Okay , i think that's all for now. Its currently 1 am , i should be waking up for tahajjud. Until then , cya.
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