Spicy chicken ramen
In conclusion , never buy food from those local mall's food court.
Its bad. And pathetic.
After eating , we went around the mall , jalan". AAAAAAAAAA idkWHY is my text all SCRAMBLED UP!!!! Im currently using blogger in ipad and it seems so slow to type hUhu :(
Okay , so moving on , we visited a lot of stores there. One of it was a gacha store(?) yeah , lots of h anime figurines there and capitalism collective stuff, ew. Next , we went to a toy store.
The toy store was quite fun , honestly. I get to play those squishy things and all. Man , i want to buy a nerf so bad...
Then , we went to a fruit store. The fruit store was so good , i think its on the ground level. It has various drinks, mostly drinks. The fruits was standard, nothing much.
I forgot what type of juice that I bought , but the price is quite affordable and simple! I like it.
After ding danging around the mall , look what time it is! Check in! :D
we took the train to go to our hotel. One thing i like about the process to buy the ticket of the train is that they used coins. Its like a chip , tiny chip that when you enter the terminal , you just have to touch the coin at the scan-thingy. Ah , i dont know what those are called ;-;
Our hotel is located in front of Pasar Seni.
Sadly (again...) i didnt took pics of the hotel , the hotel was "Travelodge'. Its comfortable and clean. When we checked in the room , i post sum pics into my tumblr and fell asleep... until 3 pm.
This is where a big story begins.
So , this year , I'm quite active lately at Tumblr , posting about my daily life and stuff. I borrowed a book from my school librrary and the publisher was Iman Publications, one of the most famous in Malaysia. They;re really popular publishing islamic content books that are up to date. And when I finished reading it , I don't know whether i searched it or joined via the book , but i'm surely joined the Iman channel in telegram.
Scrolling through the posts on the channel , I read that there's a PBKL (pesta buku kl) happening in pasar seni. That time , I was unaware and lost hope to go anywhere that upcoming 3-day holiday. But to my suprise , i didnt expect we're going to that place! :D
So , as always , an ethusiastic otaku, my heart was racing to see the booths. I didnt know there was A LOt of booths from different publishers. Oh my god , i remember that time, when finding the booth tthey shared online in tthat telegram channel , I stumbled upon a guy withlots of Phighting badges--- i was suprised lol. Though I just saw it , I continued finding the booth , but ended up going to PTS book cafe , at first. I was SOOOOOO EXCITED AND HAPPY when I TERJUMPA NIRNAMA BOOK!!! I WaS FINDING THAT BOOK FOR A LONG TIME NOW! The akak was friendly to me , alhamdulillah ;D ... but there wasnt a second one. I was so pleased and delighted , seeing those books in front of my eye. I kept asking questions to that akak and she guided me through Hilal Asyraf's books. I think I bought one novel and a comic... Before leaving that booth , she took a photo of me with the plastic bag filled with the books.
Moving on to the next booth , my jaws dropped. THERE WAS THE FIRST SERIES OF NIRNAMA! AAAAAA I ranted to my pa and suprsingly , that was the booth that was featured on the telegram channel. Sadly, the "Kak Iman" wasnt there and fast foward , i bought only the first one. I WAS SO LUCKY SINCE THEY RESTOCKED IT. Having my pa that knows nothing abt the series feels.... pathetic :( I was so enthusiastic abt tht book but having no one that shares the same feeling as me,... i feel drowned.
Also , before leaving the booth , i wanted to draw at a poster where you can draw faces , beside the booth, since that "Kak Iman" shared who drew at the booth. So , i'll give it a try. But , sadly again , when I was enthusiastic so bad i wanted to draww , there's someone also drawing there , but she didnt drew in front , but its next to me , so i could fit in too. The sad part was that while I was drawing, my pa scolded me , tellingg that I was disturbing the another person drawing. It's so complicated but its so depressing....................
After that , i was so relieved buying those books that i have long waited for. But when i continue walking on , I saw a banner saying that "ADA LAGI KAT ATAS" , then again my jaws DROPPED> .
Before that , i continued my journey to the front and I stopped by a booth where they sell an art book of Ejen ali , published from their animation studios. I , as an animation-typa person , was interested in seeing that book , but i'm not a fan of ejen ali. That akak asked me if I was an animation student. I replied , ehhh tak kak,tgk je, hehe. Like OMG SHE EXpECTED THAT i waS an ANImATION STUDENT!!??!!? No way i look that old. XD
Okay , so i'm going to tell the most unforgettable , yet regretful part of my trip.
when me and my sis walked along through the second floor, i was expecting that i think i won't buy any books again. But to my suprise , i saw a booth displaying local comics. I was attracted by their art styles so much. At first , i thought they were displaying those cliche malay books you often see at local bookstores , but to my suprise , it wasnt. They sold a unique-never seen- type of comics at the booth. My eyes was blazed and attracted by the art style of the cover of the comic. There were men at the booth , and one was saying "Mai tgk , artis komik ni ada sini. Nak suruh lukis potret/utk kawan/ apa pun boleh". I was shocked hearing that the artist of the comics were there , but i'm not quite sure who was the authors of the respective books. a guy that was sitting at the booth , just behind the table asked one of us, 'korang lukis ke?" My sis replied instantly , "ya , kami dua2 org lukis" and i didnt say a word... Without waiting , i quickly choosed the comics that i was attracted with ; Trigadis teleport and starting Point (titik mula) , and after choosing it , one f them asked my name , and so i replied. They signed my books :D like oh my gahh!!!! XD i felt blessed. But one thing that disturbs me...... is that........... ......... ...... I never got to asked thhem to draw my character. Sobs
I mean , when that guy was promoting to us , "nak lukis apa pun boleh" , my heart was throbbing and my mind was thinkingg which characterrs should i let them draw. but knowing my parents were waiting for us , and after buying they didnt asked me whether if i would ask them to draw , in that time , i was feeling..................... frozed to death.
I WANTED TO CRY AND RAGE ON THE FLOOR CUZ I SAW ONE OF MY FAVOURITE COMIC ARTIST THERE IN MY owN EYES AND I DIDNT GET THE CHNACE TO ASK HIM MORE aND ASKED HIM TO DRAW MY OWN CHARACTERS!!!!!!!!
I MEAN < I IMMEDIATELY FELT HOPELESS AND FULL OF REGRET AFTER BUYING EM AND JUST WALK AWAY. THERE COULD HAVE BEEN A CONVERSATION BETWEEN US!!!!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
..... and that wasthe time where i have guilt all over myself.. After walking away from that booth , i couldn't stop thinking about those guys who made the comic... i wanted to cry at that time , really.
The aftermath was few days later after going tom kl , with no one at the office, i quickly searched up the artist's name that was "Aidil Fat" , on instagram , i was amazed by his artworks , and remembering that time when i passed a chance to get a free drawing from him , I contacted him on insta and i FORCED MYSELF BEFORE THAT TO MAKE an INSTAGRAM aCCOUNT. BECAUSE I NEVER HAD AN INSTA ACC!!!!' my heart was throbbing and in dilemma whether i should contact him or not , because I never contacted a stranger on the internet , randomly. So rremembering that past mistake , I just do it anyway.
I meessaged him with my full heart , expecting that he would reply...
But at last , after weeks passed on , there isn;t any reply yet. :( i noticed that his last post was on October 2025, so i had thoughts on maybe he's using his second unofficial account(?) y'know , the account where you seperate your work and life content.. yeah that's what i thought , but i'm really not sure and i dont know. I still have a pic of him , at least:
I took this pic by accidentally , y'know. If i havent took out my phone , there wouldnt be that one moment where I found the best comic booth ever, made by locals.
I know you might be thinking that I'm a stalker or whatsoever while reading this , but I'm just a big fan of him about his artworks and artstyle, who missed tthat once-in-a-lifetime chance of having an artist in front of you draw the characters you liked. :( It hurts so badly in my heart, full of regret....
I missed the chance to interact with them.
Y'know , since i'm that one person who felt isolated from socializing with anyone in the class , i didn't know it would've been painful for me after flashbacking this exact moment. After 2 days spending my time on pasar seni , while i was finding the bookmark of the comic startibng point , i never felt morre anxious then ever. When i started to think that I either lost or left the 2 bookmark they gave to me , i cried deeply knowing that i would never found it again. I felt scared and panicking , finding em throughout my whole house.
And at last , i found it. I found them. , thank god.
when i finally found it , i hugged myself with the 2 bookmarks and silently creating a thought of 'am i FOMO?" That term has been around for some time about youth on social media today , and i enver wanted to be a part of them. Because that night , i wanted to support the artists by creating an instagram account , after years not using it. My mind and heart was rapidly forcing me to create it.
After some time visiting and finally followed them , i shut down the pc and came back to my room. I never expected to cried for a long time , thinking about the regrets that i've made and of all the time , years passed without me following the artists development and my existence of appreciating their work.
I know that is a silly thought I've made , and its not relevant to islam's teachings, i felt that i was being excluded and made far away by the society (people that shares the same interest as me).
....... and to this day, i'm trying to cope with that feeling; feeling of being isolated and... alone; not socializing with anyone.
Oh silly me , how did i turn this 'trip" into an inner thoughts post haha
Will continue in the next part. | 
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